| | haven't "blogged" in a while (i really hate that word, ehhem).. so now when i should be studyin last minute for a test tomorrow on a subject i haven't remotely followed since the last test, i'm gonna write one haha..
anyways, tonight i remembered how i became vaguely depressed when i turned 20 back in late april, when i realized that i'd gone far too long on simply my abilities and my potential - and that i didn't really have as much to show for it as i should've.. back then, i remember feelin pretty disappointed in myself in several aspects of my life - much to the chagrin of those close to me, who of course dutifully tried their best to convince me that i had accomplished a lot more than jus about anyone else my age and that i had a lot to be proud of.. i shrugged all that off, and took it as a wakeup call to do more with my life and follow up on my potential by puttin my heart into things more and remaining disciplined.
since that day, jus over six months have passed.. i started from scratch with a vision, but my plans for gettin involved with the glamour world have flourished and become far bigger than i could've possibly imagined at that point.. kayce models is pretty much locked and loaded to take off, and at this point you don't even need to hear that from jus me.. assuming a lot of the responsibilities in CASS has also been a great experience.. and last but not least, kayce photography has continued to expand its reach in Toronto beyond my mind's wildest boundaries..
yet, as i reflect while the year comes to an end.. i'm left with pretty much the same feelin of dissatisfaction i felt back in April, on multiple levels.. though a lot of things have changed during this turbulent half-year, the same flame still FUELs (har har, guess i shouldn't be a comedian) me to do better.. i guess i could sit back and try to enjoy the vacation i'm bout to embark on while i rest on my laurels, but i realize i really don't have that in me..
instead, now i know the foundation is set.. and while the past six months have been "good" and, to be honest, a lot better than i thought it would've been, i'm out to be "great" - the soul of a hustler, with discipline, passion and heart.. i'm still as hungry as ever, but i'm comin a lil older, a lil colder, and a lot harder now.. i can't wait for 2007 ;)
^ one of my best clubbin experiences outta the hundred-plus i've prolly been a part of, thanks to good ol' alcohol ;) thanks for comin out to those who did - pics will be uploaded soon..
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| | Posted 12/6/2006 4:54 PM - 63 Views - 14 eProps - 7 comments
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